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“That’s the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.” –John Green, The Fault In Our Stars

This wonderful quote is pretty much self-explanatory, but I thought I should maybe write about it a little :P

        As a teenager, I have always been different from my emotions. As in, I’ve looked at them from a third person’s view. And that helps, trust me, they’re just a phase. I have never let my emotions rule my heart.

But I have always looked at emotions as something that I go through without a choice. And everything in life is momentary, whether it’s happiness, sadness, anxiety, depression, ecstasy, etc. Because it all eventually ends! I mean seriously.…..            

         Think about it, even when you’re happy about something, you can’t be happy about it forever. It’s the same for sadness. So whenever I feel pain, I feel it completely and let it go. I never hold on to it. This is when the quote comes into picture.

       It’s easy to say that emotions are momentary. Many people won’t even believe that when they think about sadness or pain. Because pain DEMANDS to be felt. When you cry about a break up, you feel like being depressed about it till you have no energy left. If you see, you do have a choice there! Rather than holding on to the pain, you can simply feel it and let it go. You can’t really avoid it, but what’s the point in dragging it? And mostly everyone experiences this.      

       It’s the nature of pain to demand being felt. Then you’ll feel like swimming in self-pity for a day or 2. It’ll give you satisfaction to be like “How could he/she do that to me? How could he/she hurt me like that?” Yup yup, that’s self pity.

It’ll take you a while to digest the fact that the damage is already done. AND THEN you’ll go ahead and think of getting over it. This is how the human mind works. But why suffer so much? Something has already happened, it has passed! Make way for new stuff to happen. Let it go !

That’s the exciting part, wondering about what life has in store for you next.

There’s another thing about emotions which according to me is a little essential to understand so that one lives a peaceful life.

Emotions are always a little slower than the intellect. They are like the back wheels of a car. They ARE going to take a while to reach where your head is, no matter what. Forcing yourself to get over something is not the solution, distracting yourself isn’t a solution either. Feel it rather than trying to avoid it because it’s going to come your way some day! Feel it and let it go J Every thing is going be okay. It’ll all fall in place. It actually IS okay! You just have to wait for it to happen J

       And remember, you don’t need a reason to be happy! Happiness is a choice J

How it all began...

21st April, 14. 3:48am. That’s when I got this idea of starting a blog. Writing has always been my punch-bag. I used to write my feelings in my diary, still do, but then I realised, why not share them?

The intention behind me sharing my thoughts is relating to people. I realised that everyone around has a different set of likes and dislikes. But I found this one occurrence in life which probably gives everyone momentary happiness.

For instance, one fine morning, you’re walking towards the bus stop, singing your favourite song or humming a catchy tune and you find someone singing the same song or probably finishing the lyrics for you. You instantly, click with that person and you feel a certain amount of joy at that moment.

Looking into the depth of this, I want people to click with my stories and experiences, behaviour to situations, random feelings, etc. That gives everyone a sense of happiness and joy. I want you to know that someone understands you and feels exactly how you’re feeling right now. I intend to be that ‘someone’

My primary inspiration was expression of thoughts.

Taylor Swift is also one of my inspirations. I respect her and her music. She writes to express and I find her songs relatable. Her music has been my therapy since I was 14. I love how she plays with words so effortlessly, manages to express feelings which are beyond language, through her lyrics. This inspired me to write about how I feel. After I started writing my diary, I found one common solution for problems of any magnitude- Write about it. Pen it down. Breathe in, breathe out, let go.

I realised, I felt so much better after I got it out of my system. Thereafter, I started writing about everything that happened in my life. LITERALLY.

Writing in my diary was an easy thing to do because I knew no one would ever read it. So I knew I would never be judged. So I just wrote about random things that came to my mind. I never thought of sharing my feelings. When I first thought about sharing my thoughts, I wasn’t really ready with the fact that someone apart from me is going to be reading my writings. I was kind of scared, honestly. Thoughts like “People are going to be reading my thoughts! PEOPLE! What’ll they think about me? Will they find my reactions to situations silly?” I don’t really need to go to the depth of this, You know what I mean, right? I mean who isn’t scared of being judged. So when this happened, my mom gave me the wisest of words, which were so appropriate for what I was feeling.

She told me that people receive things that they need AT THAT MOMENT in their life. After this, everything was crystal clear in my mind and I was sure that my writings will reach people who need them. In my experience, different books have fallen on my lap as per my requirements for my growth at that point. Since, books stand by us in our moment of need, they are aptly known as “man’s best friends”.

One of the writers who really fascinated me was John Green. After reading “The fault in our stars”, I started looking at words differently. The way he has managed to express the deepest of emotions through the simplest play of words fascinates the hell out of me! I mean, how could someone possibly express such profound emotions in such simple terms and reach out to innumerable people? I aspire to attain THAT skill of expression and touch hearts of innumerable people through my writing.